A poem by La’Niya Jones
I’m done.
It’s that plain and simple.
I’ve given away my core of life.
I used to glow and radiate
That never-ending feeling of happiness.
The one that made you smile
Until your cheeks hurt,
And you were stuck with a sore mouth for days.
The one that made you laugh
In the middle of the night,
Sounding like a madperson outside
Someone’s window.
The one that made it feel like you
Were in a cheesy Disney movie.
Ready to break out in song and dance
In the middle of the crowded hallway,
For no reason at all.
The one that finally made you feel
At peace with life.
Like you could go through anything
Without looking in the mirror and wanting to cry.
Yet now I feel hollow inside.
I’ve been absorbed into a pit of sadness.
The one that makes you cry
Until your eyes are bloodshot
And physically, no more tears can come out.
The one that makes your head hurt
Throughout the day at random times.
Feeling like your brain is going to explode
In the middle of history class.
The one that makes you feel like you
Are in “The Notebook”.
Ready to let out all of your pent-up emotions,
Standing in the pouring rain.
Cold and shivering
As you wait for something to happen.
The one that makes you feel like
Your life is falling apart.
Having no time to pick up the pieces
As you go through another draining day.
Because now I am just the skin of an orange.
Tossing away my life and time.
As no one wants me,
Not even myself.